A reflection on the readings for Pentecost 18B By the Rev. Dr. Kate
Hennessy-Keimig
I have
been blessed by two vocations, priest, and my full-time “day job” as a
psychotherapist. In both of these, I
have had the opportunity through the years to learn amazing things about how
humans function, how underneath it all we are so much more alike than we are
different, and in reflecting on both the readings from Numbers and Mark, I had
the additional thought that….that apparently we have not changed in some rather
fundamental ways over the last few thousand years.
The people God redeemed from slavery in Egypt
had made a covenant with the Lord at Sinai. They have set off on the long
journey to the land that God has promised, and things are not going well. They have left behind the known and
familiar, as oppressive as it might have been. The future is uncertain. They are anxious and fearful. And in their
memories of their “old life” in Egypt, they fondly remember the good things, “We ate fish in Egypt—and got it free!—to say nothing of the
cucumbers and melons, the leeks and onions and garlic. But nothing tastes good
out here; all we get is manna, manna, manna.”
The
people Jesus called to be his disciples have been traveling with Jesus for the
better part of three years. Living with
him day by day, listening, watching, learning who he is and who they are called
to be. And lately, things have not been
going well. They have been faced with the mind-boggling news that he is NOT the
kind of Messiah that anyone really expected him to be, he has told them about
his betrayal, death and resurrection. Any certainly that they might have felt
about the future seems to be gone, they are anxious and uncertain. And in response they have struggled among
themselves, getting attached to position and pecking order, having an argument
among themselves as to who was the “best disciple,” and then calling out
someone else to Jesus, "Teacher,
we saw someone casting out demons in your name, and we tried to stop him,
because he was not following us."
Sometimes I wonder what Jesus thought
sometimes as he listened to them. If he
wondered just what would become of
them; if he got angry and frustrated like the Yahweh portrayed in the first
lesson. His words in today’s Gospel might suggest that at the very least he
does not want their all-too-human struggles to get in the way of the big
picture here, warning in stern words of stumbling blocks and millstones;
cutting off feet and hands and tearing out eyes. Clearly this is strong
stuff. This is Jesus speaking in 24
point bold type using language that is guaranteed to get our attention. But what, I wonder, is he really saying? What was Jesus, through
Mark, really trying to tell the disciples, the people of God who were the early
church and to us, the people of God here and now?
As I listen to my patients and reflect on
these readings, one of the things that occurred to me that seems to be one of
those great universals is our tendencies to get really, really attached to things sometimes. The Israelites became overly attached to their memories of the good old days. That things perhaps never really were as they
remembered them didn’t really matter, it was their attachment to them that
was the thing that caused the problem ; their attachment to how they
wanted it to be (“how it used to be”)
that got in the way of gratitude for what was now before them. Their
loss of gratitude led them to further rebel against Moses and ultimately,
against God, leading to consequences that affected them and their children
through several generations.
It is clear that
disciples deeply loved Jesus. They cannot stand the idea that he will be taken
from them simply because they do
love him as rabbi and teacher and friend.
But they also had an idea about who he was and should be that came to
them through their own understanding in the culture and the scriptures and they
were attached to this idea as well. When
this idea is challenged, this is upsetting to them. All of this gives rise to the infighting and
finger-pointing that Jesus is responding to in his strongly worded comments,
that are ultimately, if we read closely…about attachments!
I think it’s safe
to say that most of us feel pretty closely attached to body parts…to our hands,
feet, eyes. The parts of us that enable
us to apprehend the world and navigate through it, indeed these things that can
help us do God’s work as God’s eyes and hands and feet in the world. And yet, Jesus says, if these most useful things
become obstacles, if they get in the way of connection with God, especially for
one of the least or vulnerable ones …off they should go.
I think it’s also
safe to say that many of us have some things that we feel pretty closely
attached to. And in this case I’m not
really thinking about our stuff or our body parts. I’m thinking more about the beliefs and
values and attitudes we hold. The
shoulds and shouldn’ts we have in life, the “rules of the game” as we see them.
Sometimes, like the Israelites and the disciples, we get attached to these
things because we are struggling and stressed and we just need something dear
and familiar to hang on to…and that comfortable, familiar “way we have always
done things,” or safe corner of knowing that “this is simply the ways things
are and there can be no discussion” we can retreat to can provide that.
Sometimes we get
attached to our thoughts and beliefs and ideas simply because we are so very,
very passionate about something. And this is a good thing. It gets things done
and makes things happen, and generally makes the world a better place. After all, Jesus calls us to be salty people,
to stand up and take risks and let our voices be heard in defense of the
outcast and weak and the powerless.
And yet, Jesus also says, be peacemakers. So then…what if our attachments to a thought,
a belief, an opinion, a way of doing something becomes an obstacle to another
finding a way to God, a way to being in community with us…what then? What if
our attachment to speaking our truth keeps us from deeply listening to and
hearing other voices? What if our attachment to the way we see the world keeps
us from seeing another, from considering them, from connecting with them, from
loving them?
So many of us
define our lives as Christians by our passions and beliefs and strong
voices. We strive to create churches
that are welcoming places to the poor and the disenfranchised. I have absolutely no doubt that people who
might struggle to feel comfortable in many places would find open doors and
open hearts in our communities. And yet
I wonder….are there those who would find obstacles in these places to God’s
love? Are there stumbling blocks we place before others, unknowingly,
enthusiastically and with the best of intent that would be obstacles to them? Is there something we are attached to….words,
attitudes, beliefs or ways of being that might cause anyone to feel less than
welcomed, less than loved, or just “less than” that we might need to
change? Are there things we need to do
to balance our saltiness with our peace that all may truly find welcome among us?